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Reply #385 on: January 17, 2017, 10:01:47 PM

The Apocalypse?
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Reply #386 on: January 17, 2017, 10:19:52 PM

And then what happens?  ACK!

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Reply #387 on: January 18, 2017, 02:15:35 AM

Let's call him Toupeethulu.

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Reply #388 on: January 18, 2017, 02:31:10 AM

I'm fine for two and half-ish more days.


Get the prescription refilled.

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Reply #389 on: January 18, 2017, 03:49:22 AM

? Head scratch 19 January is my birthday, I'll be 48. Oh is that when Donald is sworn in? Between work, teaching, family, and chasing tail, I've ended up sleeping for like a day, damn it is catching up to me. Hope everyone is doing great! And I found out my family came from Germany, pretty cool, so if the new president keeps acting up, maybe I could learn German and head over there, or maybe Scotland, I hear they have the most redheads!
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Reply #390 on: January 18, 2017, 09:12:04 AM

If the cheeto and Richard Spencer have their way, you'll be needing to learn Russian.
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Reply #391 on: January 18, 2017, 11:06:34 AM

My little black pussy chases her tail on the big black Hitchcock chair.  Picture that and maybe it'll help with the depression.  It makes me laugh and laugh. 

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Reply #392 on: January 19, 2017, 09:04:35 AM

I have to say, Jimbo doing well is cause enough to feel well.  Happy birthday you pervert. /fistbump

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Reply #393 on: March 19, 2017, 01:56:55 PM

Drinking too much and just going in circles in general, without making any improvements.

Thankfully I'll (hope) soon be 8 weeks in psychosomatic day clinic treatment, where I cant run from problems.


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Reply #394 on: March 19, 2017, 04:55:47 PM

My chronic social anxiety is really affecting my life. I literally cant walk into a group now without feeling sick and having a massive anxiety attack. Fun times.

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Reply #395 on: March 25, 2017, 02:54:55 AM

You guys have a better treatment program that what we have in the states, sorry you guys are feeling down. We lost a 2 year old the other night, we worked him for like an hour, then got him back, sent him to the children's hospital and he died 2 days later. It affected the younger RN's a ton. I had to help with the critical incident debriefing. I feel like I'm becoming more like Dr Perry Cox more and more from Scrubs. I'm doing great, but I always have to keep my co-workers in mind and how to support them.

Hang in there guys and gals, it does get better.
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Reply #396 on: April 04, 2017, 05:36:19 PM

You guys have a better treatment program that what we have in the states, sorry you guys are feeling down. We lost a 2 year old the other night, we worked him for like an hour, then got him back, sent him to the children's hospital and he died 2 days later. It affected the younger RN's a ton. I had to help with the critical incident debriefing. I feel like I'm becoming more like Dr Perry Cox more and more from Scrubs. I'm doing great, but I always have to keep my co-workers in mind and how to support them.

Hang in there guys and gals, it does get better.

Just don't forget to do regular self-checks along the lines of "Am I overtaxing myself by taking care of others".


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Reply #397 on: April 12, 2017, 11:09:27 AM

.So the last three week was actually very good.

Antidepressants/Anxiety medication got changed from Escitalopram to Venlafaxin (and then this got upped to the max) and for reasons I don't understand the latter actually works.

I am in a sort of psychiatric day-clinic "light" insofar it's only 3 half-days per week, and it's great. Quite a few of the therapy sessions are of the type that would be beneficial/enjoyable to everyone:

Ergotherapy (handicraft, painting...etc), Ergotherapy cooking (cooking, duh), Nordic Walking, Psychical Therapy (=Yoga). Or a little more specialied but probably something most people still strugle with:  "How do handle stress" or "training attentiveness".

Since I am on sick leave all the desire to drink on the evening to calm down after work is gone too. Which I kind of expected actually, I always used alcohol as a form of medication (as stupid this is).


Today the left lense of my eyesglasses shattered, which is a small catastrophe as I am heavily shortsighted and don't have backup glasses. And it will take around a week to get replacement.  Ohhhhh, I see.

The other issue is financial. Health insurance doesn't cover the frame at all and only pays what the most basic type of lenses cost. As I have -9.75 dioptres on both eyes (a lot) those glases are going look like a heavy glass ashtray.

Since that all I can afford now that's what I am going to take (and be grateful for that, don't meant to complain!) and then slowly start saving up money for the fancier type which are thinner, flatter. Had I taken the best category of Zeiss glasses today I'd have to pay 440 € extra on top of the what the insurances is willing to pay. As I took the cheapest version I only pay the frames really.

Well thats it. Sorry for being rambly.

Edit: Oh and glasses broke because some teenager pushed his rucksack in my face in the tram. Fuck em.
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Reply #398 on: April 12, 2017, 01:33:26 PM

Bad luck Calapine :(  I live in fear of my glasses getting broken for similar reasons. No NHS cover for specs here any more unless you're on benefits. My prescription is only -5/6 approx. per eye but I still need to spend something like £200 to get ones that are reasonably thin.

Glad the new meds seem to be working, I've been on citalopram for a while now and often wonder if it's doing any good any more. That kind of day clinic sounds really good. Hope it helps.

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Reply #399 on: April 12, 2017, 02:05:18 PM

Bad luck Calapine :(  I live in fear of my glasses getting broken for similar reasons. No NHS cover for specs here any more unless you're on benefits. My prescription is only -5/6 approx. per eye but I still need to spend something like £200 to get ones that are reasonably thin.
Is Zenni Optical (direct from China glasses) not an option where you are? I get mine for $50-100 from them, depending on how high end I want to go (my main pair is all titanium with spring hinges and photoreactive high-index lenses with anti-scratch coating, for about $100, my reading glasses and backup pair were $50 a piece). My prescription is -5.25, so I got 1.67 index lenses.

I was stuck wearing my prescription sunglasses all the time for a year, since then I make sure I always have at least 2 backups (in addition to the sunglasses). I got two pairs of glasses, two pairs of reading glasses, and a new pair of prescription sunglasses for less than I would have paid for the main pair in an opticians.

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Reply #400 on: April 12, 2017, 03:18:23 PM

Second on Zenni. I've gotten several pairs of backup glasses from them, for about $30 each (frames, lenses, and shipping).

For basic glasses with lenses of the highest density material they sell (1.74), it looks like single-vision glasses would be a bit more than $100, or ~$60 for the 1.67-index lenses (or $20 less than that with the least "stylish" frames). Coatings and such can add another $50-ish but may not be necessary. International shipping looks to be around $10 more, so potentially about $50 for not-necessarily-stylish but fully functional glasses. Delivery may take 3-4 weeks so it's not great if one needs new glasses right away, but it's hard to beat for backup glasses or for a "next" pair after getting an updated prescription as one ages.

As a disclaimer, I'm currently wearing my first set of progressive lenses and got them from Costco locally due to potential issues with fitting and tweaks. They were about $200. Even after several months, I'm still tempted to go with carrying around several pairs of single-prescription glasses and swapping them as needed just for a bigger field of in-focus view. I'm still waiting for bionic eyes.
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Reply #401 on: April 12, 2017, 04:31:17 PM

I have -11 diopthingies Calapine so I feel yer pain. Like having a hubble telescope attached to your face unless I get these stupid expensive german compressed lenses.

I can't comment on the drinking after work, since I long ago quit that, but I have found that my greener alternative is less appealing on the weekends. Is having a slug or two, or a toke or two after work really self-medicating or just a chemical aid that is less effective than say, modern antidepressants, etc?

I should get back to nature, too.  You know, like going to a shop for groceries instead of the computer.  Maybe a condo in the woods that doesn't even have a health club or restaurant attached.  Buy a car with only two cup holders or something.

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Reply #402 on: April 12, 2017, 05:34:27 PM

Since I am on sick leave all the desire to drink on the evening to calm down after work is gone too. Which I kind of expected actually, I always used alcohol as a form of medication (as stupid this is).
Word.  I was not drinking alcoholic levels, but considerably more than I should that went from "a drink Friday evenings and Saturday afternoons" to "at least once a night, if not more all week long." Since quitting over the new years (yay resolutions) I've been exercising again and lifting weights, which has really improved my depression.  I'm almost worried that if I stop my regimen that it'll go back to that horrid place again.  And needless to say I don't want that.  I've still got other shit to deal with, but that's just life as it's never going away.
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Reply #403 on: April 12, 2017, 11:25:19 PM

Cheers for the Zenni link, it hadn't occurred to me that I could get specs online for complex prescriptions but that site seems to cater for it all. I'll need to get an up to date eyesight test but that's no problem.

I also constantly battle with drinking too much. Some weeks I keep it to weekend only, some weeks I don't. Would love to replace it with weed but it's still illegal in the UK and I don't know anyone who could supply me these days. I also really really like beer, wine, whiskey, rum, gin, etc  awesome, for real

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Reply #404 on: April 13, 2017, 01:24:59 AM

Calapine sorry to ask, but what country are you in? That mental health program sounds wonderful! Or the crap I deal with over here in the USA is so horrible, that all other mental health programs sound so much better than the one I work with.

As far as indulging in things, it's all moderation, and i know, moderation is hard. Like fatty foods, good drink, good food, good loving, good anything (hell playing too many video games) too much can hurt. ‘Moderation in all things is the best policy,’ per Plautus. Maybe not methamphetamines...but still a little good wine and good cheer, but not to excess.

Oh Selby, that is one of the best things for depression is working out, if I ever get to go see or help David Vobora who runs a gym to help vets get back on there feet, it will be a goal where I think I can actually help with those who hurt. His story is over at http://adaptivetrainingfoundation.org/who-we-are/  I've seen that patients that have depression and get to work out and do therapy like you guys are saying and doing, with meds sometimes, seem to work so much better.
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Reply #405 on: April 13, 2017, 03:41:21 AM

Maybe not methamphetamines..

Interestingly, the guy who introduced MDMA to psychologists, Alexander Shulgin wrote in his seminal work PIHKAL (Phenethylamines I Have Known And Loved - a great book I highly recommend) that he used to use MDMA like a "chemical martini". He'd ingest a small amount of it, 100mg or so, before social functions and said it gave him a sparkle and vivacity similar to a drink or two. Of course he synthesized it himself and it was very pure and he knew precisely what was in it, unlike street drugs cooked up by random weirdos in dodgy trailers. And of course MDMA is a different drug from simple N-methamphetamine.

Certainly reading that book convinced me that the majority of the problems associated with most drugs are because of the illegality of them, not the inherent properties of the drugs themselves.

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Reply #406 on: April 13, 2017, 10:22:26 AM

Not surprising, but sinus surgery can be pretty bad for your anxiety.

It's been a fun tour through the mental health system here. Luckily, I have very good insurance and work that can put up with a lot of generic "doctor appointments". Citalopram may not be cutting it, but Xanax sure seems to help things. Trying to manage this and work has been quite the challenge.

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Reply #407 on: April 13, 2017, 11:58:23 AM

Citalopram is the devil. Fucking frogs dude.

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Reply #408 on: April 13, 2017, 12:53:54 PM

Strangely enough, I am moving closer to being put on an SSRI for migraines. Wonder if it will affect my delightfully chipper social disposition.  why so serious?

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Reply #409 on: April 17, 2017, 08:40:05 AM

Edit: Oh and glasses broke because some teenager pushed his rucksack in my face in the tram. Fuck em.

I think I need new glasses; I read "rucksack" as "nutsack"  swamp poop

I've had progressive bifocals for several years now and been pretty happy with them, but this most recent iteration has never felt quite right.  I don't know whether to go with single-vision and swap, or the traditional old man bifocals.
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Reply #410 on: April 17, 2017, 08:44:49 AM

Nutsack certainly makes the story funnier.

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Reply #411 on: April 17, 2017, 11:02:30 AM

Anxiety is still going great. I was supposed to visit my mother on Saturday and I was hanging over the toilet retching from the stress on Friday night! Good times. So now I'm going tomorrow instead. Place your bets!

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Reply #412 on: April 17, 2017, 11:10:34 AM

The polarized glasses from Zenni were not able to withstand being left in a car in Atlanta.  The film got all fucked in the heat.

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Reply #413 on: April 17, 2017, 07:27:21 PM

The polarized glasses from Zenni were not able to withstand being left in a car in Atlanta.  The film got all fucked in the heat.
Were they on the dash? Because I leave my sunglasses in the car all the time, even on visits to Austin in August it didn't cause any problems. But they sit inside a neoprene case in the door pocket, not anywhere they will get hit by the sun directly.

You can bake cookies on the dash of a closed car in sunny climates, so not a good place to keep anything plastic.

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Reply #414 on: April 18, 2017, 12:37:21 AM

Haven't really shared anything of it on here, but my partner has been dealing with anxiety/depression/ED for the last 4-5 years. It's incredible how much stuff can change, and how quickly you can adjust and take it in stride. Where things are today would have seemed like an impossible dream even just 12 months ago.

She is now down to only a half dose of her depression medication, has no anxiety medication, and is significantly recovered both in her physical weight but also her relationship with her body and food.

Personally I have gone from living with almost constant stress and tension and fear to sometimes even forgetting how difficult it was - and still remains in moments (and making stupid flip comments about things I should know better).

I'm deeply thankful for all the help that people gave to get to this situation, and blown away with how hard she worked - an incredible achievement that most people aren't ever going to know about or really understand.

I hope all of you who are struggling with these things are able to find a way to manage and improve, and get the support that you deserve. I hope that things can get as better for you also and I know it is possible.

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Reply #415 on: April 18, 2017, 01:04:41 AM

That's really good to hear lamaros, well done to both you and your partner - as you say, it's hard work to get to that stage, and it takes it's toll on the people closest to the person with the illness too.

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Reply #416 on: April 18, 2017, 05:00:16 AM

Great to hear, man! Heart

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Reply #417 on: April 18, 2017, 08:10:22 AM

The polarized glasses from Zenni were not able to withstand being left in a car in Atlanta.  The film got all fucked in the heat.
Were they on the dash? Because I leave my sunglasses in the car all the time, even on visits to Austin in August it didn't cause any problems. But they sit inside a neoprene case in the door pocket, not anywhere they will get hit by the sun directly.

They were not on the dash, but I'd still complain.  I have some polarized RayBans that I purchased in ~1998 which are fine in the car.  The prescription is a LITTLE out of date.  I did expect the Zennis to perform similarly.  My bad, perhaps, but I'm not accepting that.

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Reply #418 on: April 18, 2017, 09:28:42 AM

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That's great. And props to you for being so supportive!

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Reply #419 on: April 19, 2017, 05:19:59 PM

Thanks peeps.  Heart

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